Dear Allah, forgive me for this rage, for my sins to my mother and father, for my past, i'm very upset for what have happened. I only seeks your forgiveness and blessing when nobody is there for me, i felt contempt and terrible, help me Allah, open their hearts to be closer to you, and soften their hearts to see the goodness in me rather than the ugly side of my past.
I hope this too shall pass. I'm not forcing anyone to help me, my nawaitu is to further my studies, to succeed and not giving any burden to anyone. I've learned my mistakes, please learn yours. It's not a big deal to me if no one cares now, the only matter is i care and i care to fix what needs to be fixing. I'll be happy if i can make them proud of me. Segalanya yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. With Allah's will, salam.
Thanks you guys, even it's not much, it's better to have your supports at this moment.